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Sep. 25th, 2010 at 10:56 PM

its so funny
how i saw the similarities from the very beginning
i NEVER thought 'd ever meet anyone like him
ever again
but i did
and the similarities alone should have been enough to send me running in the other direction
but i didnt run
i stayed
stupidly
as per usual
and its funny
cause
they even
kinda hurt me in the same way too
THATS how similar they are
and i guess
this time
i deserved it
cause i should have seen it coming
so now
everyday
ive got to bite my lip
and suck it up
pretend like it doesnt affect me
i do resent him for one thing though
for finding it so easy
to forget all the reasons why we clicked so well from the very beginning in the first place
oh wells
i guess i have nothing else to say
so.
life goes right
whether you're ready for it
or not

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broken

Jul. 25th, 2010 at 2:16 AM

there is only so much your heart can endure
there is only so many times you can pick up the pieces
and try to piece them back together
cause the first time it shatters,
it shatters to a million the pieces
and the next time,
those million pieces shatter to another million pieces
until eventually, there is nothing left to pick up anymore

there is only so many times, i can find it in myself
to trust someone new
to let someone in.
to let my defenses down

there is no hope.
no love
no strength left

i'm just an empty shell now
with nothing left to give
anymore

Mood: numb

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when we were young

Jul. 25th, 2010 at 2:06 AM

I took this from cheng's blog:

Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground?

When protection meant wearing a helmet?

When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties?

Dad's shoulders were the highest place on Earth and Mum was your hero?

Race issues were about who ran the fastest.

War was only a card game.

And the only drug you know was cough medicine?

The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees.

And goodbyes only meant until tomorrow?

And we couldn't wait to grow up.

Mood: depressed

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butterflies and rainbows

Nov. 17th, 2009 at 8:52 PM

"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain."

so MAYBE i havent been able to go out as much as i would like to
and MAYBE i dont have the kind of freedom i want
and MAYBE i have a ton of work to do

but you know what?

at the end of the day
if i had to use one word to describe my life right now
it would be:
WONDERFUL

i think that MAYBE
the storm is finally over

i found my pretty rainbow
at last
and i couldnt be any happier than i am right now

Mood: cheerful

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love game

Oct. 29th, 2009 at 2:42 AM

i've got so much work to do.i havent slept properly since last week.midsems and shit now.and i just spent close to an hour listening to my mum tell me how stupid and useless and pathetic i am because i apparently NEED a boyfriend and i dont know how to be on my own and that having one is nothing more than an ego boost for me.i mean of course right.thats the only possible reason i could possibly have for getting into a relationship.to boost my ego.cause i am a evil selfish egotistical bitch.

thanks for the vote of confidence.
really.
it was totally what i need right now

Mood: aggravated

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fairytales

Oct. 19th, 2009 at 2:20 AM

you make me want to believe in
happily-ever-afters again <3

Mood: loved

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whatever it takes

Oct. 11th, 2009 at 4:26 PM

People say, love comes and goes
But they don't understand what they don't know
'Cause what I feel starts deep inside
It's kinda like a seed that springs into life

They say, it's not right and we move too fast
But they don't know the meaning of what we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind to whatever people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
'Cause you know why there's no standing in our way

When you're far and we're apart
I'm really missing you, I wanna be where you are

They say, it's not right and it won't last
No point believing what we have

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
So don't pay no mind to whatever people say
Whenever it is in my life
I'll be on time
'Cause you know why there's no standing in my way

And if you're lost, I'm gonna find you
'Cause without you I'll break down and cry
And you know why I wanna surround you
With all my love

Is, I'll fly
It takes, I'll try
Pay no mind to what other people say
In my life be on time
You know why there's no standing in our way

Wherever it is, I'll fly
Whatever it takes, I'll try
Pay no mind to what other people say
Whenever it is in my life
Know that I will be on time
Because you know why there's no standing in my way

Mood: loved

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<3

Sep. 27th, 2009 at 12:04 AM

Mood: happy

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the games we play

Sep. 15th, 2009 at 11:32 AM

they walk out out of the theatre
talking and laughing the way they usually do
but in a heartbeat
something in his expression changes
he starts pacing up and down
she sees the panic in his face

but why?

and then she sees the other girl
brief glances
awkward introductions

why are we even here?

he takes her hand in his
and looks over to give a triumphant grin
the other girl
she smiles
she takes the hand of the other boy
and they turn to walk away

the boy's triumphant smile fades
only to be replaced by a look of defeat
the light leaves his eyes
and in that moment
she felt her heart shatter to a million pieces

she knew she had lost him
the possiblity of the fact that
she may never have had him in the first place
was too painful to swallow

why am i still here?

she knew
she knew she should walk away
she had every right to
and yet she stayed
waited for him to rip her heart into another million pieces
before she decided that enough was enough
that it was time to take back what what was hers
her dignity?pride?self worth?

and that was when she promised herself
that she would never ever
set herself up to get hurt that way

never again.

Mood: blank
Music:worn me down - rachael yamagata